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Wednesday, December 16th, 2009
sillyoaties	2:15p	Letter to my other half. You've only been gone for 5 hours, and yet... the hours drag on. Hours that will soon turn to days, months... and eventually years. I do not know how I am going to push through this, but deep down I know I will. It seems virtually impossible right now. I feel empty, like half of me is gone. I don't know how I can do this without you. You're my support, my rock. The pain I feel from having you taken from me is more intense then anything i've ever felt before. I've been left in the past, but those were just breakups, easily move on. I can't with this. My life is on hold. I have to be strong for Braeden. He needs me now more than ever. I promise you I will take good care of him. I told my mom in the car, "I can do it. This family breeds strong women." There was the humor in it to help me laugh, but it is true. I never believed it before, but it's true. Everything in this house, in our room reminds me of you. I walk into the kitchen and I see you standing there cooking. I walk into the bedroom and I see you sitting on the bed, angry about how your shot missed and the other player got the kill. I see you in our child. I know the days will get easier once I settle into a routine again, but the pain will never go away. The pain I felt seeing you walk out that door, the tears in your eyes. I will never forget that for the rest of my life. The bed is going to feel so big and lonly (and quiet, haha). Every little fight that we have had, has gone out the window. Anything you ever did before to upset me, has dissappeard. Having you taken from me has shown me how much I love you and you mean to me. The saying, "You don't know what you've got untill it's gone" is completely true. Though, I do know what I have it still hits me An amazing man who is loving, caring and loyal who loves me for me. I hope....pray, that you come home safe and quick. We need you. The day you come back to me will be the happiest day of my life. I will feel whole again. Kristin Current Mood: crushed, tired, lonly (4 Comments |Comment on this)